much needed break

what's up everyone. so i've taken the last two days off, and wow i didn't realize how badly i needed a break...i definitely played when i shouldn't have and when i was tired and that just added to my frustrations.

i definitely feel better about everything though. the last day (tuesday) i played i finally woke up and realized i was playing tilted/not very well. i played my pretty good game (obviously wasn't in a zone or anything but WAY better than i have been) so i'm ended on a good note which was very nice since i have good thought while i'm away.

so we leave for our little weekend excursion tomorrow around 11 am. definitely looking to some relaxing time w/ the wife's' family. it's always fun when all of us get together, so definitely looking forward to it. also it will allow me to take at least 2 more days off of poker...

i haven't really decided when i going to play again, it definitely needs to be some what soon just cuz of bills and whatnot. but i don't wanna rush back into it and grind a bunch and get burnt out again. i might play sunday after the super bowl festivities but i haven't really decided yet. we'll see...

i'll resume posting in february, which i'm not looking forward to since that just happens to be the month i turn 30 in this year...meh i guess, it was bound to happen sooner or later, just kinda snuck up on a guy.

alright i'm out. have a good weekend every1

sick of it

so i've really become sick of poker...i've played way too much this month and really am just burned out, but really i'm just sick of all the suck outs and getting frustrated, it generally doesn't bother me at all, but there has just been so many this month it's driving me crazy. i honestly don't know if i'm going to play for a long time. my plan was a week but at this point i'm going to clear my bonus tomorrow and be done for a while.

it doesn't really help that i'm playing super shitty and down for the month. so basically i would've been way better off to just play normally and clear a little of my bonus and be up on the month, but since i didn't i'm only up a little bit after rakeback and bonus for the month...what a fucking waste of time. i also think losing my other monitor really hurt me, i didn't realize how much i used that/ relied on it. so maybe that will help if i decide to get back into it, but realistically i'll have to just because i will need the money i generally make from it to help out with bills and all.

so this is my second to last day at the casino and i'm a little sad, nothing major, just going to miss all the people (not the gamblers, people i worked with...)and good times i had at that place, but i gotta grow up sometime...

hope all is well...

big life changes

well, i think i finally "sucked out on life"...besides my amazing wife and daughter... so my new job that was supposed to not be full time for a few months or so. magically becomes full time on february 2nd. it basically boils down to i was in the right place at the right time, which i don't think has honestly ever happened to me before...

i'm very excited about this opportunity (ldo), but of course i'm crazy nervous. i've never really done anything like this before and it's definitely a pay cut to start off with, but in 5 years i will be farther along (i hope at least) than i ever would've been in the casino business. i'm a little over whelmed about all that i need to learn and comprehend in the shortest amount of time possible...

i'm excited to have a normal schedule and not have to work nights. it will be nice to be able to be around for family dinners, and events, etc. this also should allow me extra time to play poker, which is always good, not to mention i'll be able to play at night now when the games are better than when i usually play. so all in all, i'm super pumped, nervous as hell, but super pumped.

i'm also extremely looking forward to our little family getaway we're having at the end of this month. i'm definitely looking forward to sum time away from poker and just be able to relax and not worry about anything. so that will be nice.

poker wise things have been ok. i think i'm still down for the month. i haven't checked my stats in the last couple days but i'm still pretty sure i am. probably only 2 BI or so, but still i'm down. which i'm not happy about but considering i've already surpassed my biggest month, volume wise, and honestly am a little burned out, i can't be too upset about it. not to mention my rakeback and year end bonus will be more than ever, so hopefully i have a good last week of the month and can turn the month positive plus all the bonuses and rakeback...

have a good weekend everyone.

wow janurary sucks

seriously. i don't know if this downswing is ever going to end. every single time i get it in or play a big pot, they either show up with the top 1% of their range or end up sucking out on me...just ridiculous, and it's starting to drive me crazy. i've stole so many pots it's ridiculous lately. but every single time i get into a big pot i lose it some how. so frustrating.

i had my first of two session for my leak finder today. mpethybridge and i went over all my PT3 stats and it went well. we found some leaks that i honestly didn't know i had (ldo). he also basically told me that i was pretty good. (which is always nice to hear, especially right now) and that sewing up these last few leaks should be crushing 50nl in no time and on my way to 100nl. which is nice to think about. just seems way far away right now. so i have sweat session w/ SS on sunday and hopefully i can get these leaks sewed up quicks.

life wise...meh. there's an eminem song called "If I Had" that really sums up everything i have going on lately...great song

well have a good day everyone.

turning 30 life crisis?

sup everyone.

poker wise still kind of on a downswing. i did realize that i've been playing extremely passively. which in turn allowed some opponents to catch up to me, since i wasn't applying any aggression, which just tilted me more. luckily i realized it early on in the session, and started to play more like i normally do. i had a good session for the rest of the time and ended up being a positive one, so that felt good.

i've been attempting to play 6max lately at the 10nl level and i've just gotten my ass kicked. i've only played 600 hands or so and i'm down almost 10 BI. holy shit that's bad, there were a couple of coolers and all but still that's just down right bad...so i realized it looks like i'm not built for 6max and am probably just gunna bag it.

so i got on here and started typing out this huge long thing about my life and turning 30 and shit that i'm going threw/feeling, but then i realized it'd just start worrying people, so i decided to just scrap it...only thing i'll say is i think the fact that i'm about to turn 30 is getting to me. i know it's only a number and all but it's just made me look at everything. so i just don't know. alot has been changing with my mental and psyche lately, and honestly probably not for the better. but o well. probably just stress.

well the wife is planning a birthday party for me (i think newayz) so if she doesn't have ur email address let her or i know what it is so you can be invited to the festivities.

have a good monday everyone.

new job

so started the new job on wednesday and it's going pretty well. like any new job everything is so overwhelming right now with all of the new things to learn and figure out. definitely seems like an awesome company to work for, and everyone i've worked with to this point is way cool and laid back/down to earth which makes it way easy to like it...

it was crazy to be awake so early. i haven't seen that side of 7am in years...it was nuts how many people were actually on the road. i was like "holy shit people actually are awake at this time...lol

so far so good definitely, i'm excited about the opportunities this can possibly create for my family and i. so hopefully things keep going well and i keep picking things up quickly.

poker wise i finally had a winning session yesterday of 4 BI so that definitely helped out the confidence. i'm having a Leak Finder session with SS, and mpehtybridge which i'm extremely excited about. i'm really looking to sew up some leaks that i think are keeping me from balla status. i feel lately that i have a very solid grasp of things, and have made HUGE leaps the last 2 months (TYVM SS), and just need to sew up a few things i do in certain situations that keep me from truly crushing games.

so over all things are going pretty good. i'm definitely soar and tired just from not having any time to rest since i don't have any days off to relax anymore, but since this is going to make a huge impact on my families life and how we are able to live so it's definitely worth it. i can rest when i retire....

hope everyone is doing well...

holy downswing batman

hey everyone. i'm so irritated/frustrated/pissed right now. it's actually started to become funny lately (not really though) it's been so bad.

i'm down 10+BI since saturday. it's really a mix of everything...sick coolers, deffinately some ridiculous suckouts, and shitty play. i've noticed i get that "o well here we go again" feeling and will just check call or check behind in situations where i need to be aggressive. its' really starting to get to me though. i was planning on making a w/d for some extra $ to have and now i won't be able to play 100nl at all since this w/d will take my BR down to my comfort 50nl level. just lame. makes me feel like i'll never get to 100nl.

i think i'm going to try and tighten up a little bit. don't know if i'm taking the whole LAG thing to far or what, but it just seems like i'm getting myself into some shitty spots recently, (probably a little tilt induced) so i'm just gunna tighten up a bit and hopefully things will even out here soon. i'm also thinking about dropping the #of tables a bit. just to switch it up and maybe be able to focus on decisions a little more.

i bought myself a little 30th birthday present...nothing really special just bough some nice cigars so i have them to smoke on my birthday and for the family trip at the end of this month. i'm still a little shocked i turn 30 in less than a month.

on a very positive note, the wife doesn't have chrons' or anything of the such. the tests she just had came back completely negative which is very good. hopefully she'll figure out what's going on, she has some more labs to do and then the doc said everything should get figured out. thank God it's nothing major though.

i start the new job tomorrow and i'm looking forward to it. i'm nervous (ldo) but i'm sure as soon as i get started i'm sure things will go ok.

well have a good rest of the week everyone.

start of a long week/month

what's up everyone. so even though it's not my official monday (well i guess i don't have a monday since i'm going to be working 7 days a week now), they generally suck...

so i get this email from FTP about my bank transfers, and basically there sorry but they have no idea when there going to be here. they give me a lame ass 10% off my w/d back. like that is supposed to help...so much for paying rent. damn the US government is basically what this boils down to. i don't know much about politics, but one thing i don't understand is how can a "free" country tell me what i can and can't do on the internet? so ridiculous...

so i've been on a downswing lately(only 5 BI). nothing too severe but enough to realize i'm a little tilted/ frustrated lately. so needless to say i'm going to play as much as possible for the rest of the month and then take february pretty chill, starting with the little family vacation we have with all of the wifes' family.

so i posted my article on 2+2 that i did for SplitSuits' site, and while i think it was a good article it got no love on 2+2. which is actually kinda normal, i'm not part of any of the cliques on there and generally get no respect...meh, i guess i just won't take the time anymore to do anything like that for 2+2. if someone else wants me to fine, but i'm basically done w/ the forum. plus the games are getting tough enough as it is, i don't feel like making them tougher by giving knowledge away for free.

well i start the new job on wednesday and i'm looking forward to it. nervous of course but i'm excited to start some new opportunities. hopefully things work out and i can get the hell outta the casino business...

have a good week everyone.

having an accoplishment cigar and lounging

what's up everyone. just a little update. this will be my last day off for at least a month so i'm lounging a bit and about to smoke a cigar.

so i was extremely productive this weekend. the wife is basically out of commission because of all of her pain, (still no news on wtf is going on, but she just had some tests on wednesday so hopefully soon). so i needed to get some things handled before my crazy 3 job regimen starts. so now that i've accomplished everything i set out to i'm about to smoke my cigar and relax (can u tell i like cigars?)

i finally finished my article for SplitSuits' site. i think it is pretty good and i don't know if i should be giving out so much information for free, but he asked me to do it and he's helped me so much how could i really say no...it's on a couple of topics that i really think i've started to grasp since really thinking about the game and since i started taking lessons from SS. so hopefully everyone who reads it thinks it's good and gets something out of it.

poker wise i've been a mad man recently. i've played so much (well for me at least) this month that i'm already at my 15k hands. which is crazy since my highest monthly total is around 28k. the win rate for that time is less than steller but i've had a few more beats than normal this month so i'm sure things will even out (well hopefully anyways) so needless to say i'm deffinately on my way to clearing my full end of the year bonus.

i think it's made the wife a little angry with me since basically i'm playing as much as possible and when ever i have a free hour here and there, but hey it's money we can use for a bigger and better life, so as soon as i get comfortable with my BR and we start using poker $ for substantial fun toys/things i'm sure she'll realize it's a good thing i know how to play poker and make $ at it.

i'm planning on taking some 100nl shots this weekend. the BR really has grown pretty well from last month and i feel pretty comfortable with the amount that i have for 100nl. so hopefully all goes well and i can find some good games to play in.

well it's cigar time now. have a good weekend everyone.

meh

i think i was a little upset yesterday...

yesterday at work didn't make things any better, ya yesterday was just a shitty day. but it's a different day.

i'm hoping to get my computer issues resolved this week but i really don't know where to start since i am basically clueless when it comes to computers. i can function on them but when it comes to fixing and finding problems i have no clue. so if anybody can help let me know!

just wanted to put a post in where i seem happy since yesterday was such a shitty day, and i read my post this morning and was like "hmm i was a little angry"...

have a good day everyone.

life sucks sometimes

hey everyone. i'm deffinately not happy at the moment so this post could be a little angry...

so i decided not to put an offer on the house in, and in doing that i pissed my wife off (which is NEVER a good thing) i was just worried about the money. the house was a very good deal and perfect for us, but i would've hated to get it and then realize we fucked ourselves over. so now i'm sure everyone is pissed at me, but you know what i really don't give a fuck.

on another shitty note something is fucked with my computer now and i can't use my other monitor which sucks because since i've been playing 15 tables i'm using both monitors, but something is messed and one monitor just turns off, which is awesome since i was playing and it randomly just started happening and i just lost a huge pot when i had KK, and the majority of the money went in preflop, and then the monitor starts turning off and i time out on the flop when i had 3/4 of my stack in. so i time out and lose the whole pot....so pissed off right now.

so i'm fucked right now. i have to put in crazy volume and don't have much time because of all the work and new job shit, and now this happens. y can nothing ever just go right? y does something always have to be fucked up w/ my life? i guess i'm just doomed.

so i'm on the phone with dell and they say it's not there problem since i bought it from best buy and to call them. they give me this number and it is disconnected. so now i'm back on the phone with dell and on hold...so wonderful. i should've just not woken up today and that would've been a WAY better option than waking up.

well that's enough of me ranting i guess, have a good day everyone.

2009

well happy new year everyone.



i love this picture so damn much i had to put it on here. i know i'm biased but damn i have the cutest daughter ever, and if you tell me i don't ur lying! everytime i look at it on my computer i say "i luv u kid". man she deffinately has me wrapped around her little finger...

so i am all excited to get my end of the year bonus that i've qualified for so i can add it to my BR and bump up to 100nl. i look at it today and i have to clear 11000 FTP. HOLY shit. i think the max i've cleared in one month is 6K max. which means i have to double my load. i added 2 tables to the mix today (bringing my total up to 14) and it felt ok. i only timed out when i was changing things and my table layouts, so i was able to handle it. i noticed when i played 12 lately i was starting to get a little board and started surfing the web/chatting so it probably will make me concentrate a little more, which is always a good thing.

so with 2 jobs and basically a 3rd w/ having to play cards as much and as often as possible, it's going to be a crazy insane month...so on the days i work at the casino i've decided i'm going to have to wake up a little earlier and put in some extra time. i figure an extra 45 minuets a day should be enough to get the job done. not to mention i have to have this all finished in 26 days since at the end of the month we're going on a family retreat w/ the wife's' family... so needless to say it's going to be a very busy month, but given the fact that i'm addicted to money i'm sure it'll be worth it.

so we go to look at a house tomorrow and i'm way excited/scared. the house really probably is "the one" and the price is ridiculously good, but (of course) i'm a little nervous about buying a house. and in the midst of the busiest month ever i don't really know where will we will ever find time to move if it goes threw. but we'll c how the walk threw goes first before i start stressing myself out more than normal.