Wednesday, December 31, 2008

end of the month/ new year

hello everyone. just a little update.

2009 already almost? damn that's kinda ridiculous. i can't believe how much time flies when you get old...

december was a very good month. actually my best month ever that i can think of. i don't have my old database, since i got my new computer, but i'm almost positive that it is me best month, especially since the other months were at 25nl and this month was at 50nl and 100nl. the games in december have been very good and i hope they stay that way at least for the first part of the month since i'm going to have to put in such a huge volume to clear my end of the year bonus.

i am very pleased with my progression threw out the year. to think of the player i was in june/july, and to think of the player i am now is truly remarkable. i look back at those times and just think "wow i really was bad, and i still made a little $" that gives me alot of motivation for the upcoming year.

i have to thank the people that help me make such a huge transformation in my game:

first VinnyVT he was the first person i started to take lessons from and planted the seeds of good TAG play and got me going.

SplitSuit (SS), he has taken my game from meh to almost balla. i still have some leaks to sew up to become truly very good (i might be there at 50 already but i wanna b great at 100+) but without SS i truly would not b where i'm at. only because of poker i've been able to pay bills these last few months with the casino being so slow and our winter storm that snowed us in for 10 days. so thank you SOOOOO much SS, you truely have been a blessing this year.

everyone @ 2+2, to everyone who made meaning full posts and truely help me get better i thank you. there's really too many to name, but thank you for everything to the 2+2 community.

i have some goals that i think are very reachable for 2009. depending on how the new job works out, i plan on putting a lot of time and effort into poker again so i start to see substantial money to use to help better the quality of life for me and my family (down payment on a house, pay off debt, etc., etc.,)

1.) end year at 200nl w/ shot takes at 400nl
2.) bankroll at 10K+
3.) learn a new game/ start playing 6max to expand my poker knowledge
4.) plug up the leaks that keep me from taking it to the next level
5.) HyperFocus (SS term)
6.) do a video/article for a training site
7.) always make the +EV moves, in poker and life
8.) start a lifestyle change: healthy eating & exercise

well have a safe night everyone. i hope all of your dreams and goals come true in 2009.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

back to reality

my return to reality starts tomorrow when i go back to work. i should have been back on friday but i had a horrible sour throat and went to the doc and they told me not to go back to work until sunday. that is when i shouldn't be contagious anymore. so tomorrow is back to normal.

the last ten days have really been nice. i've had so much time to spend with the wife and kid. it's been kinda nice living a somewhat normal life and being here at night when the kid goes to sleep. i do love working nights but this shows me how much i do miss on a daily basis.

christmas was unbelievable. i got the best present ever from my wife! she got me Blazers tickets when they play the Lakers in portland, so needless to say i can't wait for that to come up. the kid got so much stuff it was overwhelming. our house is now littered with even more toys, which doesn't really seem possible. i look at her and am just in aww, she's so frickin ridiculous. i know most parents are biased but i have the cutest kid in the world, and she amazes me everyday with the new things she's doing and learning.

another thing the time at home has allowed me to do is play lots of poker. i've been doing pretty well for the month, and i've deffinately noticed the games are very good right now, which i have been told happens this time of year. if only every month was like december online. i've played a bit of 100, but still don't have enough $ in the BR for me to feel comfortable to give it a consistent go. so in a way this little break has sucked because i had to w/d more than usual for bills (thank God i can play poker and make $ doing it) and if it wasn't for that then i'd be more than comfortable for 100nl...but meh i guess. it's deffinately been worth being home and being with the family, so it was worth the trade off.

i've been trying to open things up a little bit and am trying to get up to a 17/12-18/14ish type game. the last few sessions i've been running about 16/12 and have been doing well. i figure now is the time, with the games being so good, to try out some new things, especially if it includes playing more hands with donks...

have a good start of the week everyone.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Merry Christmas

hello everyone. just wanted to wish everyone a merry christmas. i hope you all have a wonderful time with all your family and enjoy the time with your family. christmas is always busy around my house just because the wifes' family is ridiculously big so we always have a ton of stops to get to. but it's always nice, a little hectic, but good to be with family.

poker wise nothing really going on. played 100nl as a favor for SS because i was supposed to record a video for him. i was really bummed when the video that i made (which was really good) didn't get saved on my computer and was lost for good. one thing did come of this as i played more 100nl then i ever have (and in one day no less) i played around 1500 hands and it got me a little more comfortable with 100nl and the bet sizing and everything that goes with bumping up a level. so good looking out SplitSuit.

so for the rest of the month i'm actually considering just playing 100. the amount of rakeback and FTP you receive is basically double of 50 (ldo), it's just a huge jump up and given the fact that i'm going to need to get alot of FTP in the month of january it'd be a big help with clearing my bonus, but we'll see how i feel.

on a positive note i was offered a job today with the company that i have been interviewing with. i have somewhat mixed feelings about it. it is going to be a very good opportunity and very possibly can be a career for the rest of my life, but, just like when you try anything new, i'm a little nervous about the whole situation. it's a completely different life change. i feel that i have the easiest job in the world. sure i haven't been making money lately cuz of the damn economy but it's generally so easy to make money it's kinda ridiculous. i love working nights, my wife hates it of course, so i don't know what to think, but i guess we all have to grow up sometime, just wasn't ready for it to happen this quickly. the next month is definitely going to suck though. i was hired as a part time employee and then will be moved to a FT employee after i get to know the business and see if i like it. .

so january is going to be unbelievably busy. i'm going to be working 2 different jobs 7 days a week, plus having to log serious hours to clear my end of the year bonus. so needless to say i'm not going to be sleeping much in the month of january, but whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger i hear (which is funny because w/ all the shit i've been threw lately i'm probably fucking invincible at the moment).

well have a wonderful christmas everyone and enjoy the time with your families.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

stuck at home

what's up everybody. so i have to say snow is pretty and all, but this sucks. i'm stuck at home, can't work, and more snow is on the way...ridiculous.

so life wise things are a little better. my dad has been my personal chauefer the last few days since he has a 4wd truck. we talked some things out and i feel a little better about everything. i've learned (from him and my wife) that i keep things bottled up and don't show emotions or feelings and that is probably why i think about old demons at times.

i have been playing alot of poker lately since i've been stuck at home. been doing pretty decent. i had to make a few extra w/d (thank God for poker) because i've been stuck at home, and not working. so i am not playing 100nl anymore. which i'm a little bummed about but hopefully after this month and next month, after i clear my bonus, my bankroll will be set up for 100nl. ok so i've never done this before in my life and i feel like it's huge thing in my "poker career": i folded Kings pre-flop, yes u read that right PRE-FLOP!, this situation might have been pretty obvious. but i was impressed with myself that i had the discipline to hit the fold button....villian #1 is running 12/8 for a good sample and villian 2 is like 25/15 for a small sample.


Full Tilt Poker, $0.25/$0.50 NL Hold'em Cash Game, 8 PlayersLeggoPoker.com Hand History Converter
MP1: $62.65

MP2: $49.50

Hero (CO): $50

BTN: $37.65

SB: $60.35

BB: $44.10

UTG: $20.70

UTG+1: $52.60


Pre-Flop: Kc Kh dealt to Hero (CO)

2 folds,

MP1 calls $0.50,

MP2 raises to $2.25,

Hero raises to $8.50,

BTN raises to $37.65 and is All-In,

3 folds,

MP2 raises to $49.50 and is All-In,

Hero folds


Flop: ($85.05) Qd 4s 8h (2 Players - 1 is All-In)
Turn: ($85.05) Th (2 Players - 1 is All-In)
River: ($85.05) 4c (2 Players - 1 is All-In)
Results: $85.05 Pot ($3 Rake)

MP2 showed As Ac (two pair, Aces and Fours) and WON $82.05 (+$44.40 NET)

BTN showed Ks Kd (two pair, Kings and Fours) and LOST (-$37.65 NET)

Monday, December 15, 2008

good weekend

hey everybody, just a little update:

i'm basically stuck at home lately because of this wonderful weather we're having and the fact that the casino i work at called me and told me not to bother to come because of the roads. which is honestly really awesome and really shitty...awesome because i can just relax hang w/ the wife and kid and play poker for the $ i'm missing by not working, but really shitty because i won't see the $ i've made until at least 10 days, because it has to go threw all the normal w/d bs...

so poker wise i feel like i've made huge strides the last week. i've been absolutely killing 50nl lately. mainly because of the last lesson i had w/ SS and my realization of me giving villains too much credit, and my lack of value betting in spots where i should be. i'm starting to not always give villain the nuts when they're against me and it really has payed huge dividends. on thursday i had my biggest winning day ever at 50nl. i did run slightly well, but really played well also, and that doesn't always happen. since thursday i'm up 15 BI, so needless to say i'm playing well. things really have been a lot clearer, as far as players ranges lately, and i've been value betting in spots i never have and my winrate has just soared.

i took a 100nl shot and that went well also, it's a very small sample and i did run well in it , but i'm still trying to get comfortable with it. i tried again today and just really felt a little nervous again about the money, so i stopped playing 100nl for the day and am probably gunna take it up tomorrow.

i think i made a discovery that i have bankroll/going broke issues. my bankroll for 50nl is definitely enough to where i don't feel scared about going broke and i've noticed lately the fact that i've made sum plays that i know i wouldn't have made 2 months ago. plays that i know will work and are +EV but wouldn't in the past because i didn't want to risk the $. so i think i see this in my shot takes because i'm sitting there looking at 100 on the screen rather than 50 and it nits me up a bit, but i'll get comfortable as the BR grows and the more hands i put in at 100.

life wise i don't really know what's going on anymore. i have issues in my head that won't go away, and some old demons are trying to creep back into my brain, which makes things that much more stressful. sometime i feel like i just can't do anything right, and that i don't make anyone happy. just feels that no matter what i do i'm doomed, and nothing is going to work out like i want it to/it should.

one last note (me whining/BBV) i've been on the good end of set over set 4 times in my online poker career. all the money has went in on the flop and i have only won 1 of them. how is that even possible? THREE times out of four they've hit their quads, the most recent happened yesterday and it got me thinking wtf, how is that possible? and of course i've never hit quads in the handful of times i've been on the bad end of set over set, so ridiculous!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

life

*parental advisory: there's a little swearing in this post...so fucking deal with it.

what's up all. just thought i'd make a little post since i've been in somewhat of a funk lately, figured maybe venting would make me feel a little better...we'll c.

so lately i just really haven't been happy i don't think. first of all my family situation is just fucked. (my mom and dad/siblings, not wife and kid...) there's an issue in my family that i don't understand and don't really wanna go into it but lets just say it could drive a guy to drink. i'm basically the middle man of what is a feud that will honestly probably be never ending. and it pissses me off so fucking much i can't stand it. why can't they just wake the fuck up and realize life is TOO SHORT for this kind of shit. it's so fucking ridiculous i wanna fucking punch myself in the fucking head, and let me tell you it's not fun. so if ur reading this please don't be angry w/ me i'm just telling you my situation and this is all so fucking ridiculous. i love you very much and just don't understand.

i also think i'm starting to get used to my role as a provider/man of the house. i've learned that sum things are better left unsaid when it will just cause grief. i feel that others shouldn't have to feel the pain/ stress i have (for those that don't truly know me i'm very stoic and generally never show emotion at all). i mean shit i'm the supposive "rock" of the family. so why should i talk about shit and give unnecessary stress/pain that i feel. might be a fucked up way to think about shit but hey it's me...my wife is somewhat emotionally fragile and i don't feel the need to tell her things that is going to cause her stress that (trust me honey) is just not necessary. like i said i'm the rock, i deal with all the shit/stress, and you handle the rest. luv u boo.

i have another job interview tomorrow and i just feel kinda meh about it. it would definitely be a great opportunity but if i've learned anything about myself it is that i don't like change. i'm very comfortable with my life (except for the above...ldo) and changing careers seems somewhat scary. my job is honestly so easy and i basically count for money. (good money for doing nothing really) so the fact that i might have to start actually working and trying to sell shit stresses me somewhat, but before i give myself the job i guess i'll see what tomorrow brings.

poker has been ok, i had a lesson w/ SS on monday and i thought it went very well. i've learned i'm basically fucking myself w/ my post flop play. i'm playing way too nitty/passively, not value betting where i should, and giving people WAY too much credit. i'm very pessimistic and it has creeped into my poker playing which is way not good at all. so this month i'm going to try and really objectively look at there likely range and commit a little more easily. we'll c if i'm way spewing at first, but i feel like that when i look at there range objectively and add the bottom/ random shit people show up with it'll work out fine.

for those of you that actually read this whole thing hug the ones u luv and never let 'em go, because life is too short to have regrets.

hmm...i actually think that worked, i feel a little better.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

been lazy

what's up all, it's been a super lazy month for me, well at least poker wise.

i've only played three days so far this month, kind of by choice and just not really into it. i've noticed a huge difference in the games this month (way nittier, and more dec players, probably because everyone is going for their end of the year bonus). i've been playing alot the last 6 months and i've decided (kind of subconsciously) to take this month easy. i'm still going to play enough to make my end of the year bonus, but am not planning on putting in the volume i normally do. january is going to be a big month (volume wise) in order to clear my end of the year bonus so i'm going to play a little and study and go over HH so i can identify and plug some leaks going into 2009.

i had a job interview on thursday and it went pretty well. it's for a 2B (yes that's billion) a year company, so really what could be wrong about working for a big corporation. the thing that excites me about it is that it could actually be a career. something that i could do for the rest of my life and retire.

sure dealing is fun, but i'm getting so sick of dealing with gamblers. they really are whiny, cheap, and generally assholes anyways. i've often heard that dealers burn out after a while and eventually turn to dual-rate or flooring, and i can see how that happens. only problem with that is that the casino i work at doesn't pay there floors shit, so it wouldn't be worth it at all.

have a good week everyone.

Monday, December 1, 2008

December

seriously how is it december already. that is just ridiculous. it's inane how time flies by, especially when you have a child and just watch them grow everyday, and before you know it months have passed by. i still catch myself in disbelief when i look at the kid and see how much she's grown in 16 months.

november turned out to be a positive month. up almost 8 BI, but considering where i was at in the middle of the month i really can't be too dissapointed about that i guess. i'm really looking forward to grinding this month. i'm playing well and have really started to "hyper-focus" (ss term) which has really helped my decision making and overal level of play.

i'm planning on talking another 100nl shot again. i think i'm planning to do it on my weekend (wednesday and thursday) to start off. i like having a little more time and not feeling rushed when i take a shot so if i feel like playing a little longer to get enough volume i can, since i generally only play 6-8 tables it's a little slower going which actually is very nice when shot taking because i can think about things that much more. i'm really going to focus on being aggresive. in the last shot take i played very passively in certian situations which is way no bueno. but i'm pretty sure if i play like i have been, things will work themselves out.

i don't really have any goals for this month. since at the moment my goals really can't change much from last month...hyper-focusing, can't really put in more hours because of schedule...so i will again just plan on hyper-focusing that much more.

one goal outside of poker i have though is i need to start getting sum excercise. i've become accustomed to a lifestyle without much movement, and sitting in front of the computer as a second income doesn't really help either. we just bought wii fit and i've decided i have to do it at least 3 days for 30 minuetes each time. 4 would be way better, but i'll start off w/ 3 and work up from there, so tomorrow after my session i'm starting!

have a good week everyone.