Hey everyone.
Been a pretty hectic week at work, and I'm only about to get busier. I landed a pretty big order and I'm going to have to jump threw a bunch of hoops to make sure it goes off smoothly. At least there is a long weekend so there's a light at the end of the tunnel, plus it's way better to be busy at work than the alternative...
Poker has been pretty dec. I've been playing much better as of late, and with the exception of last night, where I lost every big pot I played, my results have shown it...That's nice also because in this silly game we play that's definitely not always the case...
I'm going to start playing learning a new game, 7 game was fun and all, but it really hasn't clicked with me yet. Not to mention the fact that I'm moving over to stars and I'll just have to learn something new. PLO is probably what I'll be taking up, I'll probably leave a few hundo on FTP and just play my PLO there so I can get a bit of a double wammy with bonuses and points and whatnot...
I just started to read up on the whole Dec. 1st thing, and I'm a little scared to be honest. Hopefully it will be like it usually is and everyone was scared for nothing and we just find ways around it like always...only time will tell on that one...I truly don't understand how anyone can tell me what is acceptable to do and not do with my money...gotta love the "land of the free", that could be premature and I hope it is, but it's so ridiculous to me that I potentially couldn't play on the Internet if I feel like it, and that's not acceptable to me...
Have a good weekend everyone. Later
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
meh
what's up everyone.
So today I had one of those days that you are depressed and just not happy with the way things are going...I don't know what to do/say about my job, it's fun and all, but I will never make good money at it (maybe, and that's a big maybe) in 10-15 years and I'm sure that will require 60+ hours a week...so needless to say I was just irritated all day.
Then I started thinking about something I haven't done for 10 years, which is kind of funny that it even came into my mind, (I'm sure it was the music I was listening to...) and I had it all planned out...Kinda scary that it would come into my head, but not that big a deal really cuz I'd never do anything to risk my wife and kid, so meh just a day dream I guess...
One thing I'm so sick of is the "rich get richer, while the poor get poorer" way that the world is. It pisses me off so much the way things are. I'm sick of money, the necessity of it for my happiness, and the over all idea of it...I have an amazingly beautiful wife and daughter, and I know I have it so good compared to a TON of people, and that should be how my thinking is on a daily basis, but unfortunately it's not, it's always about paying this, or wanting/affording that. I guess this is just the way that the "provider" lifestyle is???, and I should just try and get used to it...
Poker has been dec, I started playing shorter sessions and it's really helped my focus. I noticed that if I play a session much longer than 1 hour my play deteriorates rapidly the more and more I get passed that 1 hour time frame. That's helping a lot to say the least...
I'm really looking forward to the move to Stars. I really need a change of scenery and like a previous post said, I'm so sick of all the SSers I could punch myself, fuck rake back, I'll take game selection, and more players! Throw in the fact that after six months to a year it will be just a good a deal, and it's really a no brainer. I'm going to be putting my first deposit on in about a week and start to make the transition. I'm in the process of finding all the mods and getting them set up, so it should be fun to get everything set up and in order...
Well I feel better, I vented. Have a good rest of the week everyone. Later
So today I had one of those days that you are depressed and just not happy with the way things are going...I don't know what to do/say about my job, it's fun and all, but I will never make good money at it (maybe, and that's a big maybe) in 10-15 years and I'm sure that will require 60+ hours a week...so needless to say I was just irritated all day.
Then I started thinking about something I haven't done for 10 years, which is kind of funny that it even came into my mind, (I'm sure it was the music I was listening to...) and I had it all planned out...Kinda scary that it would come into my head, but not that big a deal really cuz I'd never do anything to risk my wife and kid, so meh just a day dream I guess...
One thing I'm so sick of is the "rich get richer, while the poor get poorer" way that the world is. It pisses me off so much the way things are. I'm sick of money, the necessity of it for my happiness, and the over all idea of it...I have an amazingly beautiful wife and daughter, and I know I have it so good compared to a TON of people, and that should be how my thinking is on a daily basis, but unfortunately it's not, it's always about paying this, or wanting/affording that. I guess this is just the way that the "provider" lifestyle is???, and I should just try and get used to it...
Poker has been dec, I started playing shorter sessions and it's really helped my focus. I noticed that if I play a session much longer than 1 hour my play deteriorates rapidly the more and more I get passed that 1 hour time frame. That's helping a lot to say the least...
I'm really looking forward to the move to Stars. I really need a change of scenery and like a previous post said, I'm so sick of all the SSers I could punch myself, fuck rake back, I'll take game selection, and more players! Throw in the fact that after six months to a year it will be just a good a deal, and it's really a no brainer. I'm going to be putting my first deposit on in about a week and start to make the transition. I'm in the process of finding all the mods and getting them set up, so it should be fun to get everything set up and in order...
Well I feel better, I vented. Have a good rest of the week everyone. Later
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Sick of SSers
What's up everyone.
Had a lesson yesterday w/ SplitSuit yesterday, and it went well. He always reminds me of things that I forget or things that I need to hear. That guy knows so much about poker and can read hands so well it's kinda stupid...he also talked me into something that I've been thinking about for a while now...
I'm so sick of all the SSers on FTP that it's driving me crazy. I'm so sick of getting on a table only to leave 15 minutes later cuz all of a sudden there's 5 SSers....so ridiculous. The deep tables are ok, but lately it just seems to be a reg fest. So I've decided to move over to Stars.
I can live without rake back, plus once I build up some play it will equal out/ be better for me in the long run anyway. So I'm going to play threw January 2010 on FTP then move my BR over to stars and start playing there in February. I think I'm going to move a little bit over there right now so I get things set up and have everything ready to go when February comes around. That will give me enough time to set up mods, and get my HUD set up and everything else figured out. I'm just so sick of dealing with all the damn SSers that I'm done with it, not to mention Stars has twice the amount of people and it's kind of a no brainer...I'm looking forward to a change of scenery.
This weekend actually sucked. I woke up Saturday with a bad soar throat and it hasn't gone away...I feel a little worn down so I've just been lounging and resting all weekend really, so hopefully I wake up tomorrow rested and not feeling ill, cuz working is never fun when you're not feeling 100%...
Well nothing else really going on. Have a great week. Later
Had a lesson yesterday w/ SplitSuit yesterday, and it went well. He always reminds me of things that I forget or things that I need to hear. That guy knows so much about poker and can read hands so well it's kinda stupid...he also talked me into something that I've been thinking about for a while now...
I'm so sick of all the SSers on FTP that it's driving me crazy. I'm so sick of getting on a table only to leave 15 minutes later cuz all of a sudden there's 5 SSers....so ridiculous. The deep tables are ok, but lately it just seems to be a reg fest. So I've decided to move over to Stars.
I can live without rake back, plus once I build up some play it will equal out/ be better for me in the long run anyway. So I'm going to play threw January 2010 on FTP then move my BR over to stars and start playing there in February. I think I'm going to move a little bit over there right now so I get things set up and have everything ready to go when February comes around. That will give me enough time to set up mods, and get my HUD set up and everything else figured out. I'm just so sick of dealing with all the damn SSers that I'm done with it, not to mention Stars has twice the amount of people and it's kind of a no brainer...I'm looking forward to a change of scenery.
This weekend actually sucked. I woke up Saturday with a bad soar throat and it hasn't gone away...I feel a little worn down so I've just been lounging and resting all weekend really, so hopefully I wake up tomorrow rested and not feeling ill, cuz working is never fun when you're not feeling 100%...
Well nothing else really going on. Have a great week. Later
Thursday, November 5, 2009
November Already???
What's up everyone.
I seriously can't believe it's November already, that just seems redic to me. What in the hell happened to summer? O well I guess, just sucks we won't see the sunshine tell March or April...lol
Poker has been better, I've really started to session review, and it's definitely helped. I've noticed I've been pretty spewy. I also noticed that I've just become complacent and really not "worked" on my game. I just got used to playing making a w/d, then repeating the whole process...so I've been reading and studying and visiting 2p2 more than I have in a really long time, so needless to say I hope to see things turn around soon. I have a check up lesson w/ SS on Saturday so that will help also...
So I've been so addicted lately. My friend came over and figured out my ipod and we got all my old music off it and onto my new computer. In the process he showed me a few things and I've gotten so much music in the last few days it's stupid. I honestly have to much, I'll be driving and can't figure out what I want to listen to cuz I have way too much...not a bad problem to have I guess...
Well have a good Friday everyone.
I seriously can't believe it's November already, that just seems redic to me. What in the hell happened to summer? O well I guess, just sucks we won't see the sunshine tell March or April...lol
Poker has been better, I've really started to session review, and it's definitely helped. I've noticed I've been pretty spewy. I also noticed that I've just become complacent and really not "worked" on my game. I just got used to playing making a w/d, then repeating the whole process...so I've been reading and studying and visiting 2p2 more than I have in a really long time, so needless to say I hope to see things turn around soon. I have a check up lesson w/ SS on Saturday so that will help also...
So I've been so addicted lately. My friend came over and figured out my ipod and we got all my old music off it and onto my new computer. In the process he showed me a few things and I've gotten so much music in the last few days it's stupid. I honestly have to much, I'll be driving and can't figure out what I want to listen to cuz I have way too much...not a bad problem to have I guess...
Well have a good Friday everyone.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Happy Halloween
What's up everyone. It's been a few so I'd thought I'd do a little update especially since my last post wasn't of the happiest nature.
Life is meh, I guess, just as everything ups and downs. Nothing too severe, just did a lot of reflecting after my uncle passed and have thought a lot about life and what I want etc...Nothing really new I guess.
Poker wise, yesterday was the first time I played in a week, the time off definitely felt good. When ever I take a break because I'm getting pissed at results and just thinking about the money factor, I realize how bad I've been playing. I didn't think poker at all for a week and just kicked it with the wife and kid (which I'm sure they liked) when it was my "poker time".
The only real thing I did was get back to reading a poker psychology "My Worst Poker Enemy", which helped a lot. I read threw the book about 2/3 of the way and then decided to re-read NLTAP. So I got back to reading the psychology book since I was obviously a basket case...Time off always makes me look at the big picture and makes me realize how bad I was playing, and how results oriented I was being.
I realistically need to take at least 2 days off for every 14 days straight I play. I think that's the thresh hold of my grinding capacity. I looked over my sessions and I could identify exactly where my play took a 180...so I think more consistent breaks will help this problem from occurring regularly...
I also started to session review after I play each session, and that's been very helpful so far. It's what made me realize in the first place I was playing horribly. I looked over sessions on back to back nights and was like "o holy shit, I'm playing horrible and need to take a break and relax" it's amazing what happens when you step back and look, rather than just have the thoughts as you're grinding in your head. I usually take a 15 minute break after I'm done playing, grab some water and then session review, and I think it's going to be a extremely valuable in getting out of my 50nl rut...
So, I'm probably going to get struck by lightning for this...The lady that stole from us got caught! lol, stupid bitch. She stole a credit card and racked up the charges and got caught, man I hope she goes to jail, I'm sure she'll get out by claiming she's crazy (probably not far off), but o well, at least everyone realizes now she's a psycho bitch...
Looking forward to tonight, my mom is having her annual Halloween Bash, so the kid should have fun, this is her first year that she'll actually have somewhat of a clue what Halloween is, so that should make it even funner.
Have a Fun and Safe night everyone.
Life is meh, I guess, just as everything ups and downs. Nothing too severe, just did a lot of reflecting after my uncle passed and have thought a lot about life and what I want etc...Nothing really new I guess.
Poker wise, yesterday was the first time I played in a week, the time off definitely felt good. When ever I take a break because I'm getting pissed at results and just thinking about the money factor, I realize how bad I've been playing. I didn't think poker at all for a week and just kicked it with the wife and kid (which I'm sure they liked) when it was my "poker time".
The only real thing I did was get back to reading a poker psychology "My Worst Poker Enemy", which helped a lot. I read threw the book about 2/3 of the way and then decided to re-read NLTAP. So I got back to reading the psychology book since I was obviously a basket case...Time off always makes me look at the big picture and makes me realize how bad I was playing, and how results oriented I was being.
I realistically need to take at least 2 days off for every 14 days straight I play. I think that's the thresh hold of my grinding capacity. I looked over my sessions and I could identify exactly where my play took a 180...so I think more consistent breaks will help this problem from occurring regularly...
I also started to session review after I play each session, and that's been very helpful so far. It's what made me realize in the first place I was playing horribly. I looked over sessions on back to back nights and was like "o holy shit, I'm playing horrible and need to take a break and relax" it's amazing what happens when you step back and look, rather than just have the thoughts as you're grinding in your head. I usually take a 15 minute break after I'm done playing, grab some water and then session review, and I think it's going to be a extremely valuable in getting out of my 50nl rut...
So, I'm probably going to get struck by lightning for this...The lady that stole from us got caught! lol, stupid bitch. She stole a credit card and racked up the charges and got caught, man I hope she goes to jail, I'm sure she'll get out by claiming she's crazy (probably not far off), but o well, at least everyone realizes now she's a psycho bitch...
Looking forward to tonight, my mom is having her annual Halloween Bash, so the kid should have fun, this is her first year that she'll actually have somewhat of a clue what Halloween is, so that should make it even funner.
Have a Fun and Safe night everyone.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
In a Funk
What's up everyone.
Been a shitty couple of weeks...my uncle passed away (he's in a better place so that helps, but it's never easy to lose anyone...), my Grandpa just had surgery to remove cancer from his face, the wife has a few family members that are sick, just not a very good start to October...
The ceremony for my Uncle is this Saturday, so the whole weekend will be about family and that will be nice. I've noticed as you get older you get busy and generally don't see each other except for holidays or when something bad happens, which is definitely not how it should be. It makes me kind of sad actually, but I guess that's just what happens...
I'm assuming that poker has seen a direct hit because of this...I'm definitely way more irritated with all the running into tops of peoples ranges. Honestly that more than anything is tilting me lately...The suck outs are something you deal with just cuz you know it's going to happen, but when they have a certain range, and you're always running into the top of it in big pots is really getting to me. It's definitely tilts me more than anything. Of course I have a huge amount of pressure on me atm to play well as we desperately need a w/d (lol of course, so much for moving up) and it's tilting me/making me irritable when I don't win.
I think it'll be good to take a few days off. I'm getting to the point where I'm getting mad about losing and that's when I need a break. Usually I let beats and losing roll off me like everything else, but when I start getting actually mad and that "wtf r u kidding me, fuck poker" attitude I know it's time to take some time off..
I guess I'm just pretty irritated in general atm. I had a big life reflection while I was driving home from work today, and it wasn't a good one. I was just thinking about life and work and what "this" all really means, and I honestly didn't have an answer of what's the point...
...but then I came home and saw the wife and kid, and I was temporally relieved. I still don't know though. I'm just getting sick of things, life is too short to not be happy with your job or money or whatever it is. I feel like I need to change something to become happy, problem is I have no idea what it is. It's very possible this is just the temporary downswing talking and adding more fucking $$$ stress, but idk...I seem to have a lot of these types of moments lately.
I know that it's all due to one issue, and it drives me crazy, furious, and sad all at once, and realistically I probably will never be fully happy with my life until it gets resolved...but (here's where it gets really good) it honestly probably never will, and everyone is going to die pissed off and bitter...fucking awesome. Well for now and until that day comes that it gets fixed (which it won't) fuck everything...
Later everyone.
Been a shitty couple of weeks...my uncle passed away (he's in a better place so that helps, but it's never easy to lose anyone...), my Grandpa just had surgery to remove cancer from his face, the wife has a few family members that are sick, just not a very good start to October...
The ceremony for my Uncle is this Saturday, so the whole weekend will be about family and that will be nice. I've noticed as you get older you get busy and generally don't see each other except for holidays or when something bad happens, which is definitely not how it should be. It makes me kind of sad actually, but I guess that's just what happens...
I'm assuming that poker has seen a direct hit because of this...I'm definitely way more irritated with all the running into tops of peoples ranges. Honestly that more than anything is tilting me lately...The suck outs are something you deal with just cuz you know it's going to happen, but when they have a certain range, and you're always running into the top of it in big pots is really getting to me. It's definitely tilts me more than anything. Of course I have a huge amount of pressure on me atm to play well as we desperately need a w/d (lol of course, so much for moving up) and it's tilting me/making me irritable when I don't win.
I think it'll be good to take a few days off. I'm getting to the point where I'm getting mad about losing and that's when I need a break. Usually I let beats and losing roll off me like everything else, but when I start getting actually mad and that "wtf r u kidding me, fuck poker" attitude I know it's time to take some time off..
I guess I'm just pretty irritated in general atm. I had a big life reflection while I was driving home from work today, and it wasn't a good one. I was just thinking about life and work and what "this" all really means, and I honestly didn't have an answer of what's the point...
...but then I came home and saw the wife and kid, and I was temporally relieved. I still don't know though. I'm just getting sick of things, life is too short to not be happy with your job or money or whatever it is. I feel like I need to change something to become happy, problem is I have no idea what it is. It's very possible this is just the temporary downswing talking and adding more fucking $$$ stress, but idk...I seem to have a lot of these types of moments lately.
I know that it's all due to one issue, and it drives me crazy, furious, and sad all at once, and realistically I probably will never be fully happy with my life until it gets resolved...but (here's where it gets really good) it honestly probably never will, and everyone is going to die pissed off and bitter...fucking awesome. Well for now and until that day comes that it gets fixed (which it won't) fuck everything...
Later everyone.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
My Amazing Wife
What up everyone...This is probably tl;dr but o well...
So as the title entails this post is about my wife, I was worthless for 2 weeks (back injury left me on the couch unable to move) and my wife had everything on lock. She cooked, cleaned, took care of our kid, and still had time to go to work and get her hair cutting on...Thanks boo, I know I'm not good at it, and don't say it enough, but thank you very much, you are very appreciated and all your hard work kept the house in working order...
She also was the boss of the house and every time I tried to get up and do something for myself, or help her out (cuz I felt way worthless and like a mooch) she basically said WTF are you doing?! you sit down and do nothing (which without a doubt made me relax and get better much quicker than I would've otherwise), I'll handle it, I will say it was nice for a while being waited on but it got old, not being able to do anything for myself.
The back is meh atm...it's still hurts (mainly from sitting down) and I'm still having to take a pain pill at night after a day of work and sitting in the work truck and @ the computer...I was all excited to go and see this "spine specialist" my Dr. referred me to, and I learn all it is, is some pain clinic that helps you cope/deal with the pain...wtf, how is this going to help anything??? how is just masking the pain going to help me get over this disorder or whatever they diagnosed me with? that one kinda irritated me today, guess we'll just have to wait and see...
Poker is at a somewhat turning point for me...I've decided (I'm pretty sure I've done this before but o well) to refocus my efforts. I read a few articles that really made me sit back and reflect on what I am getting out of poker and what I want from poker...
I've gotten into this pattern/rut of just wanting to get my $500 w/d every 2-3 weeks and have that be fine, but after reading these articles I realize I'm not really getting any better, I'm not pushing myself to play against better players/ or take a shot in a bigger game. I'm just searching for the easy tables, or the biggest fish, rather than really trying to accelerate my game and get to 100nl-200nl by December when the games get way better.
So I'm going to try and not make a w/d (I would really say I'm NOT period, but bills are bills and w/ a kid sometimes you just need extra cash...) I'm going to really start and hyper-focus (good looking out SS) on my decisions, and most of all I really need to start assigning ranges to villains and play accordingly (my biggest leak). I figure w/ a month and a half of good solid playing and really focusing and studying my hands after each sessions/ talking with others about them, that I will be more than ready to make the jump to 100nl w/ shots at 200nl in December.
This is my long term goal (not a really long time frame but long enough I guess) that I'm really going to focus on. Every non-family oriented moment I have is going to be dedicated to poker and studying. I'm also going to read for 15-20 minuets each night before I go to bed (this may be lol funny, cause it's so short, but it has taken me 2 years to read 1/2 way threw 3 books...think about that lol).
So I've got my goal in sight and now I'm going to do the work to achieve it!
Have a good weekend everyone, and I better see you at the party on Saturday!
So as the title entails this post is about my wife, I was worthless for 2 weeks (back injury left me on the couch unable to move) and my wife had everything on lock. She cooked, cleaned, took care of our kid, and still had time to go to work and get her hair cutting on...Thanks boo, I know I'm not good at it, and don't say it enough, but thank you very much, you are very appreciated and all your hard work kept the house in working order...
She also was the boss of the house and every time I tried to get up and do something for myself, or help her out (cuz I felt way worthless and like a mooch) she basically said WTF are you doing?! you sit down and do nothing (which without a doubt made me relax and get better much quicker than I would've otherwise), I'll handle it, I will say it was nice for a while being waited on but it got old, not being able to do anything for myself.
The back is meh atm...it's still hurts (mainly from sitting down) and I'm still having to take a pain pill at night after a day of work and sitting in the work truck and @ the computer...I was all excited to go and see this "spine specialist" my Dr. referred me to, and I learn all it is, is some pain clinic that helps you cope/deal with the pain...wtf, how is this going to help anything??? how is just masking the pain going to help me get over this disorder or whatever they diagnosed me with? that one kinda irritated me today, guess we'll just have to wait and see...
Poker is at a somewhat turning point for me...I've decided (I'm pretty sure I've done this before but o well) to refocus my efforts. I read a few articles that really made me sit back and reflect on what I am getting out of poker and what I want from poker...
I've gotten into this pattern/rut of just wanting to get my $500 w/d every 2-3 weeks and have that be fine, but after reading these articles I realize I'm not really getting any better, I'm not pushing myself to play against better players/ or take a shot in a bigger game. I'm just searching for the easy tables, or the biggest fish, rather than really trying to accelerate my game and get to 100nl-200nl by December when the games get way better.
So I'm going to try and not make a w/d (I would really say I'm NOT period, but bills are bills and w/ a kid sometimes you just need extra cash...) I'm going to really start and hyper-focus (good looking out SS) on my decisions, and most of all I really need to start assigning ranges to villains and play accordingly (my biggest leak). I figure w/ a month and a half of good solid playing and really focusing and studying my hands after each sessions/ talking with others about them, that I will be more than ready to make the jump to 100nl w/ shots at 200nl in December.
This is my long term goal (not a really long time frame but long enough I guess) that I'm really going to focus on. Every non-family oriented moment I have is going to be dedicated to poker and studying. I'm also going to read for 15-20 minuets each night before I go to bed (this may be lol funny, cause it's so short, but it has taken me 2 years to read 1/2 way threw 3 books...think about that lol).
So I've got my goal in sight and now I'm going to do the work to achieve it!
Have a good weekend everyone, and I better see you at the party on Saturday!
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