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Sorry for the last one...For some reason won't let me edit or have paragraphs? maybe it was meant to be...lol, sorry for the random thought read if anyone reads it...

Update

Well...this blog really isn't about poker anymore as it's not possible to play in Washington State (fucking GHEY!!!) so whatever...thought I'd update maybe one last time, although it's always good to rant somewhere... Things are pretty chill I guess, the kid is ldo the main focus of everything and she's definitely starting to become a little spoiled (my kid? no way!) One thing parenting is teaching me is patience, I'm a whole lot better than I was three + years ago...definitely room for improvement but still much better and more relaxed :) Trying to start and get things more in order in my life. Just have a more set schedule. Wake up at certain time everyday type shit...things I don't usually do because I have a casino employee work schedule (lack of a schedule...) basically just becoming a little more like a grown up. I'm fighting it, but it looks inevitable, lol. Still PT at work and it sucks. Hopefully FT comes way quick, but I never know. thinking about maybe moving to nights and getting a random day job... I've really been into music lately. I always have been into it, but I'd rather just surf the net and read and listen to music then watch tv...just seems like there's nothing really worth watching and I can catch up on sports in an hour on SC...Damn I'm sounding like a grown up again. Not much otherwise really. I don't even know if anyone looks @ this anymore...Might be my last post, if it is...Be easy everyone.

Fall

Hey all,

I'm a little pissed atm. I was just starting to get back into playing poker online and grinding. Then I get this damn email from start saying sorry WA state is fucking gay and you can no longer play online poker in WA...WTF, that is just rediculous, how can someone decide for me what I should or shouldn't be doing. I was under the impression that this is a "free" country, but as I've grown older I've realized the goverment is just a bunch of idiots trying to play bully and tell us what to do...ok, rant over.

The kid is doing amazing, in preschool going strong. She comes home everyday with some new knowledge and both the wife and I are like "wait a minute, where did you learn that", the kid is a sponge!

Looking forward to all the holidays spending time with family. It's always nice to see things as a grown-up (poor attempt, lol) and see all smiles and joy on the kids faces, makes you almost forget your old...meh fair trade imho.

Well kind of sad since by the look of it the "poker" portion of this blog died...I haven't tried FTP so I've yet to see if it is still possible over there...

Have a great Halloween everyone.

Summer

Well Summer was kind of on the shitty side to be honest...but meh i guess.

The main high point of the summer was the kids birthday party. I did a ton of work in the yard and really liked the way it turned out. I love spending time out there now enjoying...lol, growing up is funny.

I changed jobs, and for at the moment at least it was a huge mistake...Don't get me wrong, I hated Fastenal with a passion. It's a really really fucking lame company, but anyways....

The casino is going well and I love it, but it has been a difficult switch to this point...since I'm PT atm I'm really at their mercy, so the next two weeks I only work 2 days...way no good for attempting to feed a family. Fuck. Hopefully shit works out like it sometimes seems to happen...I'll hold my breath.

Life seems like a struggle right now. Seems like I've made a few bad decisions (changing jobs, not going to a different Casino, my project) but the kid seems to be good and enjoying life, so for now at least maybe I'm doing something right (all though that's honestly all my wife's doing...) so I guess it's a break even atm.

I've been playing a little poker when I get home in the morning.. My BR is up to a whole $25 on stars now. I'll be at 10nl in no time...lol

I'm out. Later

Changes

Been a while, thought I'd do a little update.

Biggest change to date is that I've changed jobs, well almost...I start back at the Casino next Friday and I'm extremely excited about it. I'm looking to a lot of less stress, and more $, total win win.

The last job just really wasn't for me. I never truly liked it. They did give me a solid job during a tough period for a lot of people (myself included) so for that I can't complain, but the company itself has some issues. I don't want this to be a company bashing post so all I'll say is good people (at least my GM/and a few others in the District) working for a company that has the wool pulled over every ones eyes...well at least a good portion, I'm happy to be gone, but I'm sure I will miss the stability of it at times, but that's about it.

I'm trying to make a few other life changes that are slowly coming along, and then sometime not at all...For the last 3 weeks or so I've been extremely lazy. I think it had a little to do with having short timers syndrome at work and not wanting to do anything. I realized it a day ago and finally snapped out of it, so that is always good.

My back and neck are killing me, and I've lost $3 playing 2nl so I think I need to be done...

Later

It's Official

Yup, I w/d everything I had on FTP on Saturday. I still have a $75 tournament ticket on there so unless I can randomly luck box a huge win/decent cash to get me back up that will be the end of me playing online for a while...

I still have $33 on Stars that I will be starting to grind the extreme micros to build a roll up, but honestly that does not sound fun at all so I'm sure I won't be doing that really either...

I don't know I just kind of lost it. I always thought I'd play poker, I love it and still do, but it became way too much of a grind towards the end. I knew I had to play and should play to get the monthly w/d, but at the end I just didn't feel like playing at all, and as I said needing my BR definitely helped make a decision that I might not have been able to do otherwise, who knows.

I'm sure I'll miss it in 6 months or so, but if things work out the way they should/could I'm sure I won't really care much. I'm also really looking forward to being out in the sun and playing golf a lot this summer. That will just be an added bonus.

I'll be doing random updates when I go play live or something (planning on doing this at least 1-4 times a month, whenever I'm can have a free weekend night...)

Have a good one everyone. Later

I Think It's Goodbye

I think it's finally come to that time...I'm saying goodbye to poker. I need my poker BR to get started in something I'm very excited about to say the least.

I have really not been in the mood to play poker and haven't put in any volume. I figured it was time to just hang it up for a while. It also didn't make a difference though because I was going to have to take my BR out regardless leaving me done anyways. I haven't asked anyone for a stake, and honestly probably won't...idk, I will really have to see how things are as far as spare time goes, that will be the deciding factor on if I ask for a stake...

I'll still be updating the blog I'm sure, just not as frequently or about poker...meh, maybe I won't. idk.

Later